Ancora Imparo (macabre_grrl) wrote in intr0version,
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introversion and volunteer work

This is a rather unusual topic. I'd like to do more volunteer and charity work. If I had the money, I would donate a lot. But I do not, so that leaves volunteering. But the thing is, volunteer jobs seems to involve contact with people. Lots of people, different people who require someone who adapts easily to the variety. The thought of this overwhelms me and I can feel the exhaustion rising already.

I can't do this. I'm fairly good at keeping up a warm and friendly sensibility, but it wears thin. At times, people sometimes think I am downright cold, emotionally, and I agree with that description of my demeanor. I don't react to a lot of strong-emotion-sitations with the proper performance. There's not much that I can reliably do about it, it's just how I am.

And as much as I love animals, I'm not really good with them. I'd prefer to slowly get used to my own dog or cat than deal with one after another. And as an introvert, I'm not up to being super active with one animal after another at random. Again, hard to explain, but relevant when I'm trying to be realistic about what I can offer to people. It's only fair to everyone.

But what does that leave me? I could stuff envelopes or knit for the homeless, but it's too easy to put that kind of work off when you're a swamped college kid. I hate to say it, but a lot of volunteer jobs don't look like something that I could maintain for any length of time (I may be selling myself short, who knows?). Sometimes I also think that what little time I have left over from school would be best spent trying to earn a little money for myself to supplement my financial aid, but I feel guilty about this.

I guess I'm in a tough spot that's exacerbated by my personality. Other college kids do tons of volunteer work, so why can't I? Because....
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